Personal Item: Squishy Pillow

If you think about it, there is at least one item in your life that appeals to you and you’d feel really bad if it got lost or taken away. The item for in this situation is my old sand pillow. I got it from Wal-Mart years ago from a huge bin of clearance. I picked out a red one because it’d be easy to find and it chose square opposed to cylinder because it could spread out more. It’s about half the size of a normal pillow but twice as soft. When you squeeze it, you can feel the grains of sand escaping from you fingers and the texture of the feeling are so comforting.
I originally got the pillow to use on my frequent camping trips because it was small but comfortable on those nights sleeping in a tent. It’s also very light in weight so it’s no burden to pack it in my night pack. It’s so soft and squishy and I always brought it on my trips. This one camping trip a long time ago, it was cold and snowy. When I went into my tent to sleep for the night I took a hand warmer and put it in the pillow. It felt so good because the pillow absorbed the heat making it like a heater in my sleeping bag.
Eventually I started throwing it in my bed to add extra comfort to my sleep. I always hold it in my arms as if it was a person there to keep me comfortable at night. The hand warmers on that camping trip made it more like a real person because of the simulated body heat. I do that now but instead I sit it on my bed warmer for a while before I go to sleep. It’s really comforting in the winter.
Whenever I play video games in my room I use it on my lap to rest my hands on or if I’m doing homework or watching TV, it’s always there. If I accidentally leave it on the floor, I find my dog half laying on it because I guess my scent is embedded into it and she always likes to rest on things that smell like me.
Over the years of use the fabric has been thinning out somewhat and if I hold it up the light now I can see the sand inside it. It’s like having the beach in my room but without the mess. Whenever I refer to it, it’s my squishy pillow from the squishy feeling of the sand sliding through it.
The reason why I like to sleep with it is because, once again, it’s like a person to me when I’m hugging it during the night. I love the comfort and presence of someone as much as anyone else might. I just like to always have someone to hug and cuddle and the pillow is the closest thing for when I’m sleeping.
I can get lonely at my house even though I have a girl friend, so I pick it up and it reminds me of her and gives me comfort. I know it’s kind of girlish or weak of me, but that’s how I roll and I’m not ashamed of it. I bet anyone will straddle a pillow at night if they’re felling lonely. I’ve just had a single pillow for years and it’s like the pillow has become a person in itself just to be there.
That’s what my girl friend, Candice, likes to do. She’ll call or text me just to give me company before bed, work, or college. I do the same for her and it can always give us the extra edge we need to keep going. It’ s a great team strategy if you think about it. Somewhat like “I’ll scratch your back if you scratch mine”.
But that’s what a little pillow can do for a person like me. It’s always there for me to help me sleep just like Candice is always there to help me work and do a good job with whatever the situation is. I bet anyone can find something like a squishy pillow in his or her lives.